when you feel broken for not wanting more

There’s a quiet grief
that comes from not being motivated
the way the world wants you to be.

Not because you’re lazy —
but because your values don’t match the system.

This is the impact of internalized capitalism:
✧ It teaches us that rest = laziness
✧ That productivity = morality
✧ That your worth is only as good as what you can prove

So when you value slowness,
when you prioritize connection,
when you don’t want to grind —
you feel wrong.

Not because you are.
But because the story of what counts as “success”
was never written by someone who saw you clearly.

You’re not broken.
You’re just early to the future
where presence will matter more than performance.

The shame you feel?
That’s not your intuition.
That’s the residue of a system that told you
being human wasn’t enough.

✧ quiet prompt:

What part of your life have you mistaken as failure — when it might actually be integrity?

🌒 go deeper:

→ read: ambition dysregulation, system mismatch & early adopters of emotional economies → chapter: decoding