what if i'm not lazy — just early?

Sometimes I wonder
if there’s something wrong with me
because I’m not obsessed with building more.

I don’t crave hustle.
I don’t want to scale.
I’m not trying to “optimize” my life.

And for a long time, that made me feel broken.
Unambitious. Lazy.
Like I had failed some invisible test
everyone else was still studying for.

But then I look around
at the people chasing numbers
instead of connection.
The ones too exhausted to feel joy
in the success they spent years trying to achieve.

And I wonder…
what if I’m not behind?
What if I’m just early?

Early to a new value system.
One not based on extraction.
But presence. Softness. Human flourishing.

Maybe the way I’m living
— slowly, intentionally, without “results” —
isn’t failure.

Maybe it’s a glimpse
of what life could feel like
if we weren’t still trying to prove we deserve to exist.

✧ quiet prompt:

What part of your life feels “wrong” — only because the world hasn’t caught up to your values yet?

🌒 next layer:

→ read: when you feel broken for not wanting more → chapter: underneath